A Cry for Change

A cry for change

Now that she desires to change

she realizes so much has to change,

and it hurts like hell, she cries out like the tree

who loses its beauty when seasons change.

Now bare, leave less, Naked.

she is naked she lost apart of her,

the part of her that desires to be with him.

The part of her that wants this river to continue flowing

No end, No Interruptions.

Each wave signifying new days of bliss.

she feels strange at times, every day putting away feelings

but maybe this works, after all isn't this the way it is suppose to be.

Two souls got lost , entangled some how in danger zone,

but a higher force pulled the two apart and said No!

she knows one day the pain in her heart from missing him will fade

and that sparkle in her eyes for him will dim.

One day she will see him differently.

I am going beyond myself no longer passive, no longer settling

Now I will say what I mean.

I know what its like to want something you cant have.

I know what its like to have and not really have.

Indulging in sweet that is only temporary,

Every chance you get to dance beneath the sun,

how it is to wish the day will never break.

I know what its like to hide beneath the shade

to crack a smile, when broken inside.

I know what its like to say I am fine when really

I hurt emotionally and physically and wonder if I am sane mentally.

I WANT TO BE FREE.

I want to wipe the slate clean.

I feel like "starting all over again"

to put a blank canvas on easel and allow God to paint me.

The new me. I want to smile freely ,

no guilt and when its time to behold what god has for me

I want to see it supernaturally I want to see it fully.

I want to be touched.

No not by man but by God.

I want him to operate on me smoothly, and massage me.

I want him to whisper in my ear and illuminate me

I want to smile when thinking of him, and have my heart pump when I hear his name

Yes i want him intimately I desire to know him deeply,

discovering him as I allow him to search me and move me from glory to glory.

I want to be inspired, I want to inspire.

To be that light in a dark room

Lord I want to be open with you, and I know you know all about me,

but let me tell you again. Let me tell you my story

and have you fade it to black,change the transparency

to white so you can see me pure and bright.

At times I feel so distant from you,

and I wonder is it all the things I do,

the excuses I make that hinders me from drawing closer to you.

I don't want to be confused, or feel I am alone in the world,

and when I call on you wonder if you are somewhere listening to me

I want to know you are listening I want to be that close..

to worship you with all my might

so here's what I'm going to do

I will surrender my everything to you

my mind, my soul, and my body

All of this I will do Because I trust that you will take care of me.

oh lord take control of me open my eyes.

let you spirit reign within me