Questions?

what if you surrendered your all
and "I surrender all" were more than lyrics
of a song that cause tears to flow from within
and you mind to reflect on where you been.
what if you trully decided to let go of something or someone
surrendering all worldly pleasures to him.
laying down the arms of life that hold you hostage.
What if you prayed with more confidence
believing what you prayed and when you
confess of a sin are sure we wouldn't commit again.
What if this God given gift prayer was really
understood that its more than a religious tradition
it has real power!
What if we were to really walk out of our caves and choose life
following the rainbow, a spectrum of radars signaling theres
only one way to live right.

When will our hearts trully embrase him,
in all his ways and we mean it when we say not my will but your will be done.
When will we open our eyes, minds, our hearts
when will we truly disciple
When will we put an end to he say and she say and spread good news.

Who is this god we serve who is this god we speak of he is the way, the truth , the light...

Why does it seem like we go though hell to get to heaven
I don't know the answers .
but I know that he lives
he dwells in you and me.
He is the air we breathe,
and because he lives tomorrows we face without fear
trusting that everything is in his care.

Blessing bestow from on high and
at times i am in question why me.
knowing i haven't passed every test
yet still you remain faithful to me.
But how greater will your love for me be
if i gave you all of Me.
Thank you for your grace that shields me,
your mercy that keeps me.
I am living only because of you
and I know that im nothing without you.
You gave your all for me and its my duty
to surrender my everyday to you.

A Cry for Change

A cry for change

Now that she desires to change

she realizes so much has to change,

and it hurts like hell, she cries out like the tree

who loses its beauty when seasons change.

Now bare, leave less, Naked.

she is naked she lost apart of her,

the part of her that desires to be with him.

The part of her that wants this river to continue flowing

No end, No Interruptions.

Each wave signifying new days of bliss.

she feels strange at times, every day putting away feelings

but maybe this works, after all isn't this the way it is suppose to be.

Two souls got lost , entangled some how in danger zone,

but a higher force pulled the two apart and said No!

she knows one day the pain in her heart from missing him will fade

and that sparkle in her eyes for him will dim.

One day she will see him differently.

I am going beyond myself no longer passive, no longer settling

Now I will say what I mean.

I know what its like to want something you cant have.

I know what its like to have and not really have.

Indulging in sweet that is only temporary,

Every chance you get to dance beneath the sun,

how it is to wish the day will never break.

I know what its like to hide beneath the shade

to crack a smile, when broken inside.

I know what its like to say I am fine when really

I hurt emotionally and physically and wonder if I am sane mentally.

I WANT TO BE FREE.

I want to wipe the slate clean.

I feel like "starting all over again"

to put a blank canvas on easel and allow God to paint me.

The new me. I want to smile freely ,

no guilt and when its time to behold what god has for me

I want to see it supernaturally I want to see it fully.

I want to be touched.

No not by man but by God.

I want him to operate on me smoothly, and massage me.

I want him to whisper in my ear and illuminate me

I want to smile when thinking of him, and have my heart pump when I hear his name

Yes i want him intimately I desire to know him deeply,

discovering him as I allow him to search me and move me from glory to glory.

I want to be inspired, I want to inspire.

To be that light in a dark room

Lord I want to be open with you, and I know you know all about me,

but let me tell you again. Let me tell you my story

and have you fade it to black,change the transparency

to white so you can see me pure and bright.

At times I feel so distant from you,

and I wonder is it all the things I do,

the excuses I make that hinders me from drawing closer to you.

I don't want to be confused, or feel I am alone in the world,

and when I call on you wonder if you are somewhere listening to me

I want to know you are listening I want to be that close..

to worship you with all my might

so here's what I'm going to do

I will surrender my everything to you

my mind, my soul, and my body

All of this I will do Because I trust that you will take care of me.

oh lord take control of me open my eyes.

let you spirit reign within me